I CANT FUCKING TAKE THIS ANYMORE

So my mother assumes that since she "never sees me working on my resume" that I am not serious about getting another job to supplement my mail clerk job (assuming I can get it back this year). WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU GET THAT IDEA?!

I am planning on applying to the EVPL as many branches that are within reasonable driving distance. I would be able to work at McCollough or Main or ... idk. The other one that's in the park. Hell, I might even apply at walmart. Or target. There's a bajillion stores around Evansville that would pay more than the mail clerk job. There's a fuggin' mall for god's sake.

Yes, I worry about the money. I know she worries too. But where the FUCK does she get the gall to accuse me of being a lazy bastard who doesn't care about getting a decent job to pay the fucking bills? I am working THREE, count em, THREE jobs this summer, also taking a summer class. The reason you see me on my compy or playing games most of the rest of the time is because ITS FUCKING SUMMER VACATION.

I WANT TO RELAX A BIT.

I AM ALREADY FUCKING STRESSED.

RELAXING IS NICE WHEN YOU'RE STRESSED.

I WANT TO FUCKING RELAX.

RELAXING IS WHAT YOU DO ON SUMMER VACATION.

I'M SORRY I DONT WANT TO SPEND EVERY FUCKING SPARE MINUTE OF MY TIME HANGING OUT WITH YOU GUYS. I AM USED TO MY ALONE TIME.

LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE SOMETIMES OK?!

JESUS. H. FUCKING. CHRIST!

*sighs* I'm still furious.

And then she got mad at me for being irritable that she went and assumed all this shit and was like "maybe I won't talk to you anymore because whenever I say stuff you get mad." And I was like, maybe it's the stuff you're SAYING that's pissing me off! STOP FUCKING ASSUMING IM A LAZY BITCH JUST BECAUSE I LIKE TO RELAX WHEN I CAN, DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!

... I'm done. I think. Maybe. Maybe I'll see if she feels better later and I can explain why I got mad. >.> I'm just so sick of ... I want to go back to Evansville really fucking bad right now. ;_;